I had my blog post all planned out and was going to write about success, which is a trending theme with my blog, but during church this morning God changed my mind. I am now starting from scratch so please hang in there with me while I get my thoughts straight.
In church this morning, the topic was being a Disciple of Jesus. This got me thinking. Am I really a disciple of Jesus? Am I worthy of being a disciple of Jesus? As a person with many flaws, how could I be a disciple of Jesus?
The definition of disciple according to dictionary.com: a follower of Christ.
This morning in church I learned that I disciple is a learner. A disciple wants to learn from Jesus and strive to be like Jesus.
For me, my relationship with God comes first. I can honestly say I love Jesus. However, I am flawed. As a human being, I am flawed. I will never, ever be as pure as Jesus was when he walked the earth but, I still strive to be Christ like. I have moments when I am very un-Christ like and yet, I know in my heart that God forgives me because Christ died on the cross for my sins.
One of Jesus disciples, Simon Peter denied Jesus three times.
John 18:15-17 Simon Peter and another disciple were following Jesus. Because this disciple was known to the high priest, he went with Jesus into the high priest’s courtyard, but Peter had to wait outside at the door. The other disciple, who was known to the high priest, came back, spoke to the servant girl on duty there and brought Peter in. “you aren’t one of this man’s disciple too, are you?” she asked Peter. He replied, “I am not.”
John 18:25-27 Meanwhile, Simon Peter was still standing there warming himself. So they asked him, “You aren’t one of his disciples too, are you?” He denied it, saying, “I am not.” One of the high priest’s servants, a relative of the man whose ear Peter had cut off, challenged him, “Didn’t I see you with him in the garden?” Again Peter denied it, and at that moment a rooster began to crow.
These scripture tell me that even when I think I have blown it and that there is no way God could still love me but, he does love. I am his daughter, just as you are his son or daughter.
Even with my human flaws, I am a disciple of Jesus. I will never stop learning from Jesus. He is with me in my heart and he speaks to me through my Bible.
As a disciple of Jesus, I have to be ready for whatever he wants me to do. There have been times when I feel that push and I know that God is pushing me to do what he wants me to do. To be totally honest with you, there have been times when I did not do what God wanted me to do but, now I am ready to be his disciple.
This is not my first go around with a blog, but this time it is different. This blog is a written account of walk with Jesus. I believe this is what God has been calling me to do. He wants me to share my walk with you.
Again, I would like to thank you for praying for my family and especially for my brother in law. If you need prayers please let me know. I would be more than happy to put you on my prayer list.
I pray you have a blessed week.
Your sister in Christ,
PS. Today’s picture is me right before I left for church. I wanted to share the sweatshirt my hubby got me. I love that Praise Church is a place I can wear what I want and I feel like I belong. Yay!