My Struggle with Forgiveness

“To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you.” – C.S. Lewis

“I can forgive, but I don’t have to stand here and take.” – Emily Ann Selleck

As a Christian, I struggle with forgiveness. In my opinion, to forgive someone is the hardest thing that God asks us to do. I honestly struggle with things that have happened in my past. I know I need to forgive, but then what happens? Am I supposed to forget?

What if the person doesn’t realize that they have hurt me? Do I still need to forgive them?

How long am I supposed to hold on to the hurt? I have past hurts that I have been holding onto for years. I am not sure how to let them go. My heart tells me it is time to let go but, how can you let go and forgive them, especially if the same person hurts you repeatedly? Is God okay with me removing people from my life who continue to hurt me?

When I think of some of things that have been said to me by people who are supposed to love me, it makes my heart hurt. The hurt has caused a deep ache within me and I know that I need to let these hurts go because I am only hurting myself. Once the hurtful words leave the other person’s lips, I doubt they give it another thought and I am the one standing there with ache deep inside me.

I have recently realized that my struggle with forgiveness hinders my walk with Jesus. It is time for my walk with Jesus to be about Jesus and me.

Matthew 6:14-15 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. [NIV]

This scripture tells me that I need to forgive others before the Lord will forgive me of my sins. It is time for me to let my heartache go.

It is not my job to get back at someone who has hurt me, it is God’s job to deal with them. My job is to give forgiveness even if the person thinks they have done nothing wrong. God does not want me to harbor anger within my heart.
I must be ready to forgive again and again because sometimes people do not know what they do.

Luke 23:33-34 When they came to the place called the Skull, they crucified him there, along with the criminals—one on his right, the other on his left. Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they doing.” And they divided up his clothes by casting lots. [NIV]

If I have ever hurt you, please forgive me. Please let me know if I have hurt your feeling or if I do hurt your feelings. From this moment on, I am going to do my best not to hurt people with my words or actions.

Again, I am asking for prayers for Will, my brother in law. He is having complications from the surgery to remove the cancer from his brain. I would also ask that you pray for my sister Irene and their son Charlie. They are going through a lot right now and I pray that Will makes a full recovery. Thank you for keeping my family in your prayers.

If I can pray for you or your family, please don’t hesitate to let me know. I would like to be a prayer warrior for you in your time of need.

I pray you have a blessed day,

Peggy Eileen

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