I wasn’t going to post today because I am not feeling well, but that isn’t fair to you. You deserve to know what’s going on and I wanted to share with you.
I have been sick for a long time. I live with pain 24 hours a day and 7 days a week. It has been this way since I came out of the coma in 2008. I promise I will write that post soon.
I have good days and I have really bad days. Yesterday and today have been really bad days. When the days become more than I can handle, I tend to sleep. If I can get to sleep, my body takes over and just lets me sleep for hours. I used to feel really guilty for sleeping so much and sometimes I do still feel that guilt, but Nick and my best friend have told me repeatedly “when you are sleeping, your body is healing.”
When you are chronically sick, it effects everyone around you. My poor husband never knows if he is going to find a happy, gym rat wife or a wife who can’t move from the bed. I feel horrible that my husband works and I can’t do the same. Nobody wants to employ a person who has days when they can’t move from the bed. I am forever grateful to the Lord because he gave me the ability to write and one day someone will discover what an awesome writer I am and offer me a writing job. 🙂
I have prayed to God to take my illness away and to make me whole again but it hasn’t happened, yet! I do believe that one day my healing will come. There are many more people who need healing before me. Besides, there are many people who are touched by what I go through. Nick and I have met a lot of people across the country when we find ourselves in the ER because my pain is out of control. We meet lots of other people who are sicker than I am and I pray the Lord heals them first. (Especially Will Frazier)
The bible verse I want to share tonight is…
Psalm 23:19-21 Then they cried to the Lord in the trouble, and he saved them from their distress. He sent out his word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind.
I used to get upset when I would hear of people being healed but I now know that isn’t fair of me. Why would I hope someone continue to suffer when what I want the most is to never suffer again.
I know that in God’s time I will be healed. I won’t ever stop praying for God to heal me and I know that it will happen. The Lord works in his own time, not in mine.
If you find yourself in my shoes, I pray that the Lord will heal you.
Please pray for my family and the healing of my brother in law and if you drop me a line, I will pray for you and your family. I am praying for all of my readers and if you need the Lord’s help that you will just ask him. He does hear us when we pray.
I pray you have a blessed evening.
PS. I found this video on YouTube and I wanted to share it with y’all. CLICK HERE