It has been a while since I have posted and for that I am sorry. I am currently taking place in National Novel Writing Month. I am attempting to write a novel in 30 days. It is day 20 and I am less than 10,000 words from reaching my 50,000 word goal.
While I take part in NaNoWriMo, my poor husband is left mostly to fend for himself while I am up in my loft writing my guts out. As Ernest Hemingway said, “there is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.” I never realized how true his statement was until I started writing.
When I am writing about the characters that live in my head and my heart, I feel each and every terrifying thing I do to them. I have found myself at my computer writing about my character “Sarah” and bawling like a baby. The Littleton Family has lived inside of me for over four years now and they are coming to the end of their short lives. I must admit this makes me sad, but I am ready to be on to a new project.
Another reason for my absence is that I lost someone who I loved dearly. My Aunt Penny passed away. I wanted to write a great tribute to her and tell you how wonderful she was and how much I love her. But, I need to keep the memories that I have to myself. See, when I came out of the coma, I lost a lot of my memory from when I was young and the memories I have of Aunt Penny are all I have. I have a few rings, a watch and some clothes she gave me, but I would gladly give them back just to have her back on earth. That isn’t fair for me to say, because she is in Heaven with Jesus and she doesn’t hurt anymore. She no longer has to suffer from ugly old cancer.
I spent the day putting together a table and chairs that I ordered. When they arrived I couldn’t wait to put them together, but after a while, I could have thrown them out in the yard and gladly set them ablaze. While I was putting the chairs together I started to think about how blessed I truly am. I see the people around me going through so many different things and here I am putting furniture together. Tomorrow I am having a small dinner party with my friends from church and I want to share my happiness with them. I want the world to know that Mr. & Mrs. Erickson are truly blessed. We have a wonderful home, we have each other, we have our love for each other and we have the Lord looking down on us and giving us blessings.
When I start to feel the pain that I feel every day of my life, I am able to rest and stay in bed if needed. If the Lord had not blessed my husband with a great job, I would not be able to stay at home. I have found some wonderful doctors here in Texas that are willing to listen to me and help me find medications to help me live my life to the fullest. In 2012, I had kidney cancer and in September of this year, I am three years cancer free, the Lord carried me through cancer and out on the other side. I had an amazing doctor who did what needed to be done even though the thought of doing surgery on me terrified him. (i didn’t find that out till a year after my surgery.)
I am surrounded by family and friends that have become my family and a fabulous writing group that has allowed me to step out of my comfort zone and become one of the gang. I love the Golden Triangle NaNoWriMos, they are a group of talented writers that like to do the same things that I like to do. Such as going to writing group at the coffee shop in our pajamas. Yes we did!
My hope and wish is that you find the blessings that God has given you. Even when you think the world is crashing and burning around you, there is light shining from heaven to show you a blessing or two. Sometimes, it is very hard to see the light but I promise, it is there. If you need help seeing it, I will gladly help you find it.
God loves all of his children. Yes, all of his children. He is a Good, Good Father.
Happy Thanksgiving. May you find all of your blessings and give thanks to the Lord for the days he has given us here on earth and for the lifetime we will have with him in Heaven.
Peace & Love,
Peggy Eileen (WriterGirl007)