Hello, my friends. This day has been pretty heavy for me and I cannot believe that Anthony Bourdain has committed suicide. This is the second death this week from suicide and it has given me a reason to pause and reflect upon why this is happening. We look at famous people and think they must have wonderful lives, so why would they want to commit suicide? But, when it comes down to it, they are people just like us.
I know when I heard of Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade killing themselves just days apart, I think if they can’t be happy, then what are the chances of me ever being truly happy? But, I catch myself and I know we can’t think of ourselves like that. We should never compare our lives to another person’s life because we don’t know what goes on behind closed doors.
I do know that our country needs to do better by those who are affected by mental illness. The stigma attached to a person who happens to have a mental illness is absolutely crap. We don’t treat a sick person any different than another, so why would a person with a mental illness be treated any different.
As a woman who suffers from depression, anxiety, and OCD, I sought help from my family doctor, but it took me some time to get up the courage to ask my doctor for help. I was afraid of what people would think of me needing help, but why should I care what other people think of me. I haven’t always been this way though and I understand that you have to build trust with your doctor, but I promise the doctor won’t be spreading the word that you are on medication.
If you are in need of help, please don’t be afraid to get it. I can tell you it was a relief to finally have someone to talk too. If you can’t trust your doctor, it is time to get a new one.
One thing we must do is be diligent in watching our loved ones. Some may not be able to reach out and we must reach out if we see signs of change in those we love. If your loved one begins sleeping more than normal, seems quieter or anything out of the ordinary, please reach out. I was fortunate that dear hubby was attentive and went to the doctor with me and spoke when I was too afraid. I was also fortunate to have a friend who I hang out with every day notice changes and he would ask repeatedly if I was alright. He wasn’t afraid to ask questions and tell me when he saw changes.
There was a time after we first moved to Texas that my depression had me sleeping all day. Dear hubby was working midnight shifts and I would just stay up until I was exhausted enough that I was able to sleep for a few days. When I was sleeping, I didn’t have to worry about what was happening in my life or what I felt was going wrong in my life and now that I have received help, I can see that I needed help.
If you ever feel like you want to kill yourself, please don’t. I know I am just some girl on the internet, but I can tell you, it will better. Getting better doesn’t happen overnight and I had a few setbacks, but I am healthy and happy now. I feel so much better about myself and I know I am strong enough to make it through the toughest of times. But, if I need help, I will ask for it.
If you need help, there are places you can call to talk to someone. Please, reach out if you need too.
National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
CLICK here to see a list of countries and their hotlines.
Please, seek help if you need it. Send me a message and I will try to find you someone in your area to talk too. Mawow and I want you to be part of our little family for a long, long time. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and I will see you back here soon. I am still on vacation and I am not sure if I will write a blog on Monday.
Mawow and I wish you,
Peace, Love, & Kitty Snuggles